Well, blogdrive has finally succeeded in pissing me off. Notice I can't change my text color, and I can't skip lines. I have switched to livejournal. So here we go: http://www.livejournal.com/users/therosequeen/ See you there!

Twenty Random Facts About Yourself 1. My favorite musical is Phantom of the Opera 2. I wear a size 10 shoe 3. My favorite color is black 4. I am addicted to sour candy 5. I think I have an oral fixation issue 6. I want to go to Princeton even though I know I'll never get in 7. Both my grandfathers are dead. 8. My mommom has this cat named Frisky who I'm convinced is posessed by Satan 9. I am currently playing Lily Mortar in The Children's Hour at my school 10. I've had my heart broken twice, when I was 13 and when I was 16 11. I want to be all of my friends when I grow up 12. I think about suicide a little too often 13. I have self-induced MPD 14. My favorite author is Richard Preston 15. My greatest fear is not changing something about the world 16. My dad's dad designed a infared radar missle that the army still uses 17. My dad gave me his class ring to wear. 18. I think music is divine emotion 19. I'm terrified about getting into college. 20. I wish I were as beautiful as my ex-boyfriend said I was.

"I'm in a car underwater with time to kill and thinking back I forgot to tell you this. I didn't care that you left and abandoned me. What hurts more is I would still die for you." -Armor For Sleep (Car Underwater)

This past week has been one of the hardest of my life. People say I've gone from suicidally depressed to homicidally happy within the course of two minutes. I've never had people be so careful around me. It's really weird. I'm doing okay though. It's sort of an empty lifestyle, but it does give me some more time to work out my male characters. *wink wink* Just kidding. It's really not that easy. Whoever said, "It's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all" was a big fuckin' fibber. If you want to watch a movie that illustrates this whole scenario perfectly watch "The Fisher King" it's really beautiful, but the situation was almost too coincidental to be true. I've been sick all week. My mother thinks I'm getting ulcers because I've stopped letting my emotions out and it's all harboring inside me. Sometimes I think she's full of shit. I don't know why I decided to write today. I think I just needed to tell everyone that I'm okay, kind of. I feel okay on the outside, but everything inside, well I just don't want to think about that right now. "And I'm not a slave to a world that doesn't give a shit." (Marilyn Manson, The Fight Song)

I no longer blame suicidal people.

The only thing more frightening than losing the one you love, is knowing that you'll find a way around it.

When somebody loved me, Everything was beautiful Every hour we spent together lives within my heart And when he was sad, I was there to dry his tears And when he was happy, So was I When he loved me Through the summer and the fall We had each other, that was all Just he and I together, Like it was meant to be And when he was lonely, I was there to comfort him And I knew that he loved me So the years went by I stayed the same But he began to drift away I was left alone Still I waited for the day When he'd say I will always love you Lonely and forgotten, I'd never thought he'd look my way And he smiled at me and held me just like he used to do Like he loved me When he loved me When somebody loved me Everything was beautiful Every hour we spent together lives within my heart When he loved me - Toy Story 2 the last time i saw you we had just split in two he was looking at me, i was looking at you you had a way so familiar i could not recognize cause you had blood on your face and i had blood in my eyes but i swear by your expression that the pain down in your soul was the same as the one down in mine that's the pain that cuts a straight line down through the heart we call it love - Hedwig And The Angry Inch (The Origin Of Love)

Sorry it's been so long. For those of you that are confused, I did get to go to Ozzfest, and my friends did indeed save me. We got there just in time to see As I Lay Dying, and we waited around through Killswitch Engage. The guitarist was wearing a pink sombrero and a cape. We had a mosh-pit start right next to us (Ali, Theresa, Rian and I) and then, during the last Killswitch number I almost fainted. It was fantastic. I started going numb and losing balance and everything got fuzzy and black and white. Rian almost died trying to get me to a place where I could sit. *hugs all who helped* When I lived again we went back to the little stage and saw Rob Zombie, who kicked so much ass it wasn't even funny. I thought at first that he was his guitarist, because his guitarist came out with the black dreds and the PVC vinyl pants and the crowd goes nuts. Well then another guy comes out in ripped jeans, cowboy boots, a pink Rolling Stone's shirt, a cowboy hat, and blonde curls. He then proceeds to sing and the whole crowd is like, "THAT'S Zombie?" Yep. And he kicked tons o' ass. Even mine. Then we walked around "The Village" which was like 10 stores compared to the legendary 100. We heard In Flames and Black Label Society from afar, and found a good seat on the lawn about halfway into the set of Shadows Fall. Mudvayne came next and they were good, and then we waited for an hour for Velvet Revolver to set up and they promptly came out and sucked ass. I thought they would be awesome live, but apparently not. Black Sabbath set up and came out, played a bunch of songs I didn't know and Ozzy ran like a girl. The people behind us were smoking pot all night, and Rian, Theresa and I got a little giddy, not to mention the tits. There were so many painted tits everywhere I wanted to scream. These two guys in leather pants with long hair (one black one dark blonde) kept walking past. That improved the scenery dramatically. Ark stopped over to say hi and we got into it about how cool it would be to do an Ozzfest article for the newspaper. We are currently collaborating to write one. Mom and I went dress shopping today and I found a sun dress that reminds me of Tim Burton. Then Mom and I spent an hour trying to find her jewelry for this wedding she's going to next weekend. All in all a fun week. "I just want you to know that I fucked all of your mother's last night. With a spatula. Then I punched her in the stomach and shit on her, spread it around 'till she looked like Bill Cosby" - Killswitch Engage "Sir, what the fuck is tattooed on your stomach? It looks like fuckin' Etch-a-Sketch" - Killswitch Engage "Can you hang on a minute, I think we broke some shit" - Shadows Fall P.S - The titration of potassium permanganate into sulfuric acid nuetralized hydrogen peroxide with catalase is really very beautiful.

I took Paige's friend David to NWSA today to get him aquainted with the crazy ass million and five buildings we have. I figured I'd post my schedule for all to see. 1. US HISTORY HONORS PHILLIPS 2. BIOLOGY AP LAB BOOKER 3. BIOLOGY AP CLASS BOOKER 4. ADV. FUNC. AND MOD. REYES 5. ENGLISH III AP WHITESIDE 6. FRENCH III MONJIMBO 7. NEWSPAPER II JACKSON 8. HONORS A DELANEY (SPIRIT SQUARE YO!) Publish yours so we may compare.